Weeping to Dancing
By Nicole Are
Our family began 2019 with the word “CELEBRATE” as we ride the wave of the Kairos season. We transitioned from Bethel, Redding and the Holy Spirit filled glory cloud we lived in during our time in this very special place. This includes supernatural childbirths of our 3 beautiful sons to God’s clear and open way to San Diego as home and the place to build the Center for Healing that has been burned into our spirits since my husband Michael and I were very young. It’s been a time of acceleration, with this being our 7th move in 6 years and as we build up our Tender-Hearted Kingdom Warriors and lay the foundations for our family, we have been ignited in this season to take larger steps in building our position in the greater vision of Healing Revival San Diego. As the resounding sound of horses’ hooves breaking forth New Ground drives us forward, Holy Spirit is leading FROM Rest and FROM Victory as He has already saturated our family in this place with great favor and blessing.
As 2019 was coming to a close, multiple dreams of giving birth had come in November and we thought these were about birthing the Center, but in this time I also found out I was actually pregnant in the natural. For 2 years, we received several God-dreams and words prophesying that we would have one more natural child, a baby girl which remained in our spirits as a “yes” to God in whatever way He chooses to bring her.
One moment I’ll never forget was when my 4 year old son Davian, who is very prophetic, said to me in Redding just days before the move: “My baby sister is coming soon. Mama, there’s an Open Heaven right now and God is making my baby sister to be Wonder Woman, just like you.” I dropped to my knees and we prayed together.
On 12/12, I was told the baby was 5 weeks and 5 days. On 12/26, I was told the baby was 5 weeks and 5 days and that this was a NON-viable pregnancy. The nurse practitioner advised I should either take medication to accelerate the miscarriage process or have an immediate D&C. I knew in that moment to turn my eyes and turn my ear from her and I looked into Michael’s eyes instead, searching for the eyes of Jesus to fix on Him instead. My spirit had been grieving for 2 weeks because I sensed something was wrong and I had been declaring, “I DON’T NEED TO UNDERSTAND, I TRUST YOU.” When I heard the words “non-viable pregnancy,” and everything in me wanted to SCREAM, “I don’t understand!!!” it was like those words couldn’t even come out of my mouth because of a decision and declaration I had made in advance.
I continued to proclaim “I don’t need to understand, I trust you” and I knew it was vital at this time to stand on the Goodness of God. We declined medical advice and a rage inside of me grew for how this push from the medical community likely affects women with little or no faith and lack of knowledge of the medical system. Michael and I took a stand and knew that God had this one and we began to believe for a miracle.
Like a roaring lion, my spirit groaned and regardless of what it looked like in the natural, this is what was declared: “I see you and you have no access to this baby, for NOTHING CAN SNATCH THIS BABY OUT OF THE FATHER’S HANDS.” Shortly after I uttered these words, I read this: “But when it pleased God, who separated me from my mother’s womb, and called me by His Grace.” (Gal 1:15) In that moment, I stood on the goodness of God and it was confirmed that the baby was secure in the Father’s Hands. I knew that whatever the outcome, the Lord God Almighty will have the final word and will be glorified. We knew it was necessary that out of our lips, THE GOODNESS OF GOD REMAINS. Our SONG in the pain only gets LOUDER because we can feel the Lord rise up as REDEEMER. The healing and redemption of the Lord is a guarantee, and yet His ways and thoughts are higher, so we await the GREATER MIRACLE assured to come. He prepared us well in the Spirit not only for what was to come, but also to position us for the breakthrough and I believe this is available for all who believe and trust God regardless of the report.
Days before New Year’s Eve, with Michael standing by my side in the bathroom, blood was running down my legs and with the anguish of these labor contractions, the baby passed from my womb. A defining moment some might say. The world would say God failed us and place the goodness of God in question yet again, but in the Kingdom as daughters and sons, our lens and our reality is vastly different. It boils down to our choice. In whom and what do we believe? The lens we chose to look through was one that saw a picture of Jesus Himself, comforting His Bride as she poured out in pain and loss. His blood is flowing through her and there’s life in the blood of Jesus that is beyond our world and our understanding. In the Kingdom, death is not the end and we hold to the promise of NEW LIFE. For though we suffer, we know the, “Oil of Joy will be given for mourning…Beauty comes from Ashes” (Isaiah 61)… and, “weeping turns to dancing” (Ps 30:11). Though deep grieving and tears flooded the room, I saw the Father’s Hand inside my womb and with deep peace, what roared out of my lips remains true: “Nothing that belongs to the Lord can be snatched from His Hand and Nothing in His Hands remains dead.” That goes for all “our babies,” our dreams, our de-sires (of God); for what belongs to Him, the enemy has no legal access to. We know where His baby is, the Shalom of Heaven is here and THIS STORY IS NOT YET OVER!
The baby was 5 weeks and 5 days old; 5 is the number for GRACE. I saw “GRACE GRACE”, in double portion and I believe it is a corporate word and a set-up for our Miracle Working God to come and do what only He can. We bless YOU to receive the power behind this testimony as a declaration for what you are believing God for in this next season. May your faith arise from the shoulders of quiet trust and may you not be shaken regardless of what the natural world says because you carry Power and Authority from Heaven to shift that atmosphere and position yourselves and your family for the Victory. The Lord gave us a word through previous trials followed by victory that “YOUR BREAKTHROUGH IS THEIR BREAKTHROUGH.” He is Lord of the Harvest, and we know in our depths, the move of God we are all in right now, in this Kairos season is FOR THE BODY to rise up in a new way, to be launched in a new way, and to be “Cultural Architects” in this Kairos season as Kris Vallotton prophesied.
I began this story with the word “Celebrate” we stood on for 2019 and we spent New Year’s Eve until 10 pm in the Emergency Department at UCSD (ensuring I had no complication of infection through the loss) celebrating who our God is. With a timely Bethel Church message from Kris Vallotton playing in the ER and worship that seemed was hand-picked for what we were going through, the doctors and staff were talking to us about Jesus. His Presence was tangible in the room. We celebrated the goodness of God in the hospital that night and brought in the New Year in deep communion with God with our word for 2020: “HOPE”. Desperate Hope. Hope that is the anchor for our souls, hope that does not disappoint and HOPE FULFILLED as a tree of life.
As my heart’s cry captivated my Lord’s attention, I sensed the comfort of His voice and readiness to step into the moment. This is what I heard:
Bring all your questions, bring all your fear, your doubt, your anger, your pain, your anguish to Me. You are NOT alone in your grief, My Beautiful One. I do not punish you and how could I turn My Face from the one I Love? No, those whispers are not from Me. I care for all My children in ways the world does not know. If I told you the end from the beginning or the middle, would you hunger and thirst for Me? Would you bring your sacrifice of praise that positions you to receive Heaven’s resources and My reward? How could I, who gave you My ALL not desire My Beloved to have ALL? You are right where I’ve placed you, you did not miss the mark, do not give way to fear and condemnation.
Remember the woman caught in adultery whose accusers each had to drop their stone and turn from her? Remember it was ONLY HER AND I when I said, “Dear woman, where are your accusers? Is there no one here to condemn you? she replied, “I see no one, Lord.” Then Jesus said, “Then I certainly don’t condemn you either. Go, and from now on, BE FREE from a life of sin.”(John 8)
In the same way, it is ONLY YOU AND I and I most certainly do not condemn you. BE RELEASED TO LIVE FREE, not only from sin itself, but the fear of sin, past or present. You are called FREE and I intend for My Daughter to live this way. I trust you with what you will do with the accusers’ affliction and lies. There is no threat to our sacred love and know in your mind and rational thought the depth of truth and knowledge I’ve implanted in you, that I do not bring death upon My children and Heaven sings the song of Victory over the prince of the air, the accuser, the father of lies whose destruction awaits at the sound of Your Father’s voice. Until that day, the Holy Spirit grieves because you grieve. Even though I know the GLORY you live in, I will never stop counting every tear and tenderly placing My Hand to your weeping heart. YOU WILL REJOICE IN THE COMING DAYS, YOUR WEEPING WILL TURN TO DANCING, YOUR TIME OF GRIEVING IS OVER IN HEAVEN AND YOU WILL WALK IN TRIUMPH OVER YOUR ENEMY ON THE EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN.
I AM in the waiting, I AM with you now and will never forsake you. Fear not, O Daughter of my Heart. Watch Me, Keep your eyes on My Eyes, turn your ear to Me and remember this, I AM YOUR SHIELD. The arrows must go through Me first. The destroyer has no access to your destiny or your family that I created with and for you. Rest now and quietly trust.
I AM RIGHT HERE.
YOUR JESUS
“God will be your eternal light, your God will bathe you in splendor.
Your sun will never go down,
your moon will never fade.
I will be your eternal light.
Your days of grieving are over.
All your people will live right and well,
in permanent possession of the land.
They’re the green shoot that I planted,
planted with my own hands to display
my glory.
The runt will become a great tribe,
the weakling become a strong nation.
I am God.
At the right time I’ll make it happen.” (Isaiah 60:19-22 msg)
May the Spirit of God illuminate to you intimately what ministers to you and empower your FAITH to ARISE in deeper and greater measures AS YOU ABIDE AND REMAIN IN AWESTRUCK WONDER and REST IN WHO HE IS AND WHO HE SAYS YOU ARE.
In Love,
Nicole and the Arce Tribe
(My loving husband Michael and our 3 treasured boys: Davian, Daxton, and Declan Bow)